I didn't notice that Master Grover wrote a blog post, that is how unattached i have become to ttwd. I am glad that He wrote and even though there are no answers, there are also no questions and i am happy.
I love my husband and even though we have been married for almost a year now, we have only been living entirely open and married for a month. It seems that societal influences mean a lot, i can't say for sure how things are different but for sure they are different now that the world knows we're married.
I am not feeling very sexual lately and i hope that doesn't hurt Masters feelings. There are a lot of different reasons why, including my weight gain. We were on the diet and lost 25lbs and everything was great, now i'm working really hard at the gym 5 days a week and training for the 10k 3days a week, yet i am gaining and am almost back to the 216lbs where i started. :S
I think that has a lot to do with my feelings of not wanting to be sexual but also it is spring, there are so many things that need to be done with the kids, yard, school.... everything seems to happen all at once now that it's nice outside so i really don't feel like we have the time to get into anything right now.
I don't think we will be done with the things we do for a long time, i wouldn't have tattooed myself like i did, pierce what i have or built the collection of "stuff' we have if i didn't think it was a life time thing. We just need to go through this cycle of strengthening our family, home and work and then we can relax and get back to our "wants" instead of our needs :)
I love you Master,
~naida~
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
on and off
Master and i are getting along well. We aren't fighting and things are going well with the kids and everything for the most part.
We aren't "loving" either. I don't know quite what is going to happen with us. I wrote Him about how i was feeling what i was doing and not doing and not sure what to do and i haven't heard back about any of it.
I'm alright with the way things are right now between us, we have a lot of new things going on. We decided not to move and we'll just rent the basement suite under us to have the space and privacy that we want. I've been working in the garden a bit... well too cold for the garden, but i've been working in the greenhouse. I have been at the gym every day last and this week, plus my friend and i are following the "Couch to 5K" program for the last two weeks because i am going to run a 10k trail run in July. I don't know why i said yes to my sister this time when she said i should run with her, but i did, and i'm pretty excited and nervous about it.
Our kids will finally get report cards today/tomorrow because the teachers are finally off strike! YAY. and I have a parent teacher/principal/kid interview today for the oldest one. She's making me very cranky with failing PE, that's right, she's failing PE. She wont change into gym clothes and the wont participate. I don't know what to do to change that. I have taken away electronics, social media, summer vacation where she wants to go, everything and nothing changes what she does. So, i'll stew about that today.
I wont be making regular blog entries. I know i should be, but it's not going to happen... i can't even come to the page i am so not interested. The blogs i used to read are sitting in my list, neglected because i don't have time to read them or comment or catch up. :( :S
Big Sigh,
naida
We aren't "loving" either. I don't know quite what is going to happen with us. I wrote Him about how i was feeling what i was doing and not doing and not sure what to do and i haven't heard back about any of it.
I'm alright with the way things are right now between us, we have a lot of new things going on. We decided not to move and we'll just rent the basement suite under us to have the space and privacy that we want. I've been working in the garden a bit... well too cold for the garden, but i've been working in the greenhouse. I have been at the gym every day last and this week, plus my friend and i are following the "Couch to 5K" program for the last two weeks because i am going to run a 10k trail run in July. I don't know why i said yes to my sister this time when she said i should run with her, but i did, and i'm pretty excited and nervous about it.
Our kids will finally get report cards today/tomorrow because the teachers are finally off strike! YAY. and I have a parent teacher/principal/kid interview today for the oldest one. She's making me very cranky with failing PE, that's right, she's failing PE. She wont change into gym clothes and the wont participate. I don't know what to do to change that. I have taken away electronics, social media, summer vacation where she wants to go, everything and nothing changes what she does. So, i'll stew about that today.
I wont be making regular blog entries. I know i should be, but it's not going to happen... i can't even come to the page i am so not interested. The blogs i used to read are sitting in my list, neglected because i don't have time to read them or comment or catch up. :( :S
Big Sigh,
naida
Saturday, April 21, 2012
I learned something
I've learned that i'd rather read this:
Hey dude. I teach people to ride bikes, and I can offer a couple of tips. The process is always the same and it really works - most 10/11 yo kids can go from zero experience to pedalling around like a boss in a few hours. No stabilisers involved.
A bike with wide handlebars and a fairly upright riding position is best to learn on - for that reason I would recommend a mountain bike rather than a touring bike like the surly. But you'll only need it for a few days to learn and move on to the kind of bike you want, so maybe borrow from a friend.
So, first take the pedals off. Usually a 15mm spanner does the job. Adjust the saddle height so that you can easily put both feet flat on the ground. This is the key to the whole thing because you can use your feet to stay upright until you get the hang of steering and balance. Find a nice long very gentle slope. Just enough slope that the bike will roll very easily, but not run away with you. Test the brakes, get the feel of them. Waggle the bars around, rock back and forth, just get comfy. Then give yourself a push forward and pick your feet up. See how far you can get without putting them down again. Repeat. That's all there is to it. Eventually, you will find you can go pretty far. Try changing direction, doing nice 's' turns. (If you are using hand brakes, pick points to stop at to practice braking.) When you can go as far as you like, change direction and stop at will, it's time to put the pedals back on. But not before! (There is a left and a right pedal, don't mix em up and make sure they are good and tight).
Now, find a good strong friend and go to a big flat area. Put the bike in a nice easy gear before you start (your friend might be able to do this for you). Get em to put one hand on the small of your back and push you along. Pick your feet up and put them on the pedals while he keeps you moving steadily at a brisk walking pace. You decide where to steer, he just provides a bit of momentum. Start pedalling gently, and when you feel in control, ask him to stop pushing and you will be riding your bike! This moment is FUCKING AWESOME! Have a few goes at this, until your friend’s just giving you a short push to get you going.
Now practice from a standing start - put your stronger foot (pedal) at the 2 o’clock position. Keep the other foot on the ground, out of the way of the other pedal. Kick off with that foot at the same time you give the stronger foot a really good push, and you’re away. Now just practice riding around the park with a ridiculous grin on your face and soon you’ll be amazed how easy this cycling business is. And now you can go get whatever bike you like - go to a good local bike shop and get all the help and advice they offer.Good luck!
Wait, there's more. There is a special 'trick' that makes all the difference and wasn't mentioned above. It is this: the bike trainee needs to understand that balance EASILY comes from the turning of the handlebars, not from leaning. If the rider starts to fall or lean to the left, have him turn the handle bars to the left. If falling right, have the rider turn the handle bars to the right. This action brings the bike back under the leaning/unbalanced rider and brings him back into balance. Of course it's a bit of an art, but it is very easily learned in minutes, and kids, adults get the hang of it very quickly. Believe me, THIS IS THE MAGICAL SECRET OF LEARNING TO RIDING A BIKE, MOVING THE HANDLE BARS BRINGS BALANCE. You can easily train someone by having them mount a bike while you are holding it gently, then having them practice turning the handle bars back and forth while walking with the bike... they will immediately understand how to find balance.
Than learn my positions or commands.
Seems my brain is more focused on kids/family than serving and sex. I suppose i shall go read some things i should, even if it is very late, and i think we'll teach the little ones to bike ride tomorrow.
~naida~
Hey dude. I teach people to ride bikes, and I can offer a couple of tips. The process is always the same and it really works - most 10/11 yo kids can go from zero experience to pedalling around like a boss in a few hours. No stabilisers involved.
A bike with wide handlebars and a fairly upright riding position is best to learn on - for that reason I would recommend a mountain bike rather than a touring bike like the surly. But you'll only need it for a few days to learn and move on to the kind of bike you want, so maybe borrow from a friend.
So, first take the pedals off. Usually a 15mm spanner does the job. Adjust the saddle height so that you can easily put both feet flat on the ground. This is the key to the whole thing because you can use your feet to stay upright until you get the hang of steering and balance. Find a nice long very gentle slope. Just enough slope that the bike will roll very easily, but not run away with you. Test the brakes, get the feel of them. Waggle the bars around, rock back and forth, just get comfy. Then give yourself a push forward and pick your feet up. See how far you can get without putting them down again. Repeat. That's all there is to it. Eventually, you will find you can go pretty far. Try changing direction, doing nice 's' turns. (If you are using hand brakes, pick points to stop at to practice braking.) When you can go as far as you like, change direction and stop at will, it's time to put the pedals back on. But not before! (There is a left and a right pedal, don't mix em up and make sure they are good and tight).
Now, find a good strong friend and go to a big flat area. Put the bike in a nice easy gear before you start (your friend might be able to do this for you). Get em to put one hand on the small of your back and push you along. Pick your feet up and put them on the pedals while he keeps you moving steadily at a brisk walking pace. You decide where to steer, he just provides a bit of momentum. Start pedalling gently, and when you feel in control, ask him to stop pushing and you will be riding your bike! This moment is FUCKING AWESOME! Have a few goes at this, until your friend’s just giving you a short push to get you going.
Now practice from a standing start - put your stronger foot (pedal) at the 2 o’clock position. Keep the other foot on the ground, out of the way of the other pedal. Kick off with that foot at the same time you give the stronger foot a really good push, and you’re away. Now just practice riding around the park with a ridiculous grin on your face and soon you’ll be amazed how easy this cycling business is. And now you can go get whatever bike you like - go to a good local bike shop and get all the help and advice they offer.Good luck!
Wait, there's more. There is a special 'trick' that makes all the difference and wasn't mentioned above. It is this: the bike trainee needs to understand that balance EASILY comes from the turning of the handlebars, not from leaning. If the rider starts to fall or lean to the left, have him turn the handle bars to the left. If falling right, have the rider turn the handle bars to the right. This action brings the bike back under the leaning/unbalanced rider and brings him back into balance. Of course it's a bit of an art, but it is very easily learned in minutes, and kids, adults get the hang of it very quickly. Believe me, THIS IS THE MAGICAL SECRET OF LEARNING TO RIDING A BIKE, MOVING THE HANDLE BARS BRINGS BALANCE. You can easily train someone by having them mount a bike while you are holding it gently, then having them practice turning the handle bars back and forth while walking with the bike... they will immediately understand how to find balance.
Than learn my positions or commands.
Seems my brain is more focused on kids/family than serving and sex. I suppose i shall go read some things i should, even if it is very late, and i think we'll teach the little ones to bike ride tomorrow.
~naida~
Friday, April 20, 2012
Slow going
Friday's going well, it's almost 7am and i haven't screwed up yet today :) Master is satisfied and in the bath, coffee is on, lunch is made, and I'm about to get clothes out cause i just about forgot that part.
Yesterday was a write off and nothing seemed to go right. I am scared to walk the dog and i was scared to find a place to masturbate out doors and i was scared to have a bath. So i got in trouble.
It's not that easy to jump into these things again, i am very resistant and hesitant. I don't want to be and i tell myself that i've done all of these things before and loved them. Mebbe things will come together in time, i sure hope so cause punishment hurts more than usual.....
~naida~
Yesterday was a write off and nothing seemed to go right. I am scared to walk the dog and i was scared to find a place to masturbate out doors and i was scared to have a bath. So i got in trouble.
It's not that easy to jump into these things again, i am very resistant and hesitant. I don't want to be and i tell myself that i've done all of these things before and loved them. Mebbe things will come together in time, i sure hope so cause punishment hurts more than usual.....
~naida~
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